beggars can('t) be choosers

Second day of work was much more manageable. (: I really have to thank God because He never fails to help me whenever I seek Him. I was really stressed out yesterday due to the over-powering amount of things to learn from scratch- data entry, handling cheques and writing receipts, validating letters, writing reports and tending the photo room (more later). It was insane. For the whole of yesterday, I didn't even go for any break (not even toilet break!) other than for lunch until one hour before knock-off. O.o Usually I would have time for 3-4 breaks per day but not the day before. Different stuff kept flooding in and each of them had to be handled so differently! That's the reason for having been complaining that life sucks since yesterday. Please pardon me. ):

This morning, my new mentor Masnah taught me more things and I copied 2 more post-its worth of notes (see above for the amount of notes I've taken down for only 2 days of work!) and almost went crazy. Wanted to break down so badly but I remembered the golden rule of not to cry in office. So I bit my lip and hanged on, struggling to do all my work as correctly and accurately as possible...which felt like trying to canoe in a muddy swamp without getting stuck. AND THEN, my new deputy manager Anna appeared at my desk and asked me how I'm doing. o.o Oh my goodness, I was so touched! :'> It's like 雪中送炭! Couldn't take the stress any longer so I told her bluntly that work's too stressful. Before I knew it, I was practically spilling all my thoughts so it sounded more like a complaint than a feedback. :x Still, Anna was really understanding and even went to my new supervisors to instruct them to give me a smaller range of work to do. While listening to their conversation, I almost wanted to cry because I was really very touched. :'> I don't want to be a jack of all trades, but master of none. It's quite disgusting. I prefer doing more specific work and doing it well..

And God did it again. I recall that on the first day of my ex-supervisor's leave, I was struggling with my work and she called into office in the afternoon to check on me. Today, Dym Anna took the initiative to find me at my desk to ask for feedback. At those moments when I felt the most fearful at work, by God's grace, there would always be light shining into my work life and doors opening to easier paths. Really praise God for this because it's the second time that I feel like quitting but in the end, this thought is erased once again due to improving circumstances at work at unexpected times. (:

Anyway, who says beggars can't be choosers? Dym asked me which work I would prefer to do (which means I can not do those that I don't like)! She made it sound like I'm eating at a buffet lol! Ah, my Dym is so nice. :'>

Apparently, my supervisor requested me to work on saturdays starting on 24 March, which means I can earn extra bucks for 6 weeks. ^^ And I would be in charge of the photo room in April - it's the place where uncles/aunties take their photo for their Vocational Licence (VL) and collect their VLs on the spot. I actually printed one VL yesterday! It involved editing the photo (cropping + enhancements (eg. adjusting the brightness and exposure)) and printing out the card. ^^ It's quite fun especially since the uncles I met were pretty nice (yay no perverts so far lol).

Okay, I'm done ranting. I shall do my workplan for BMT while waiting patiently for someone to reply my MSN~. Bye people! (:

p/s: Am I the only one who hasn't started researching/planning on what kind of course to take in uni? I feel so slack and nonchalant about my studies. ):

I can survive

the second day of work.

"...we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope" -Romans 5:3-4

Quite glad that I've made the super impromptu decision last night despite feeling super shagged...'cos I could read before tuition and travelling on the train across half of Singapore. I'm finishing the Book of Romans! 4 more chapters to go! Woohoo! ^^

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simply exciting

Friday, 2 March


Went to church for DV zone party ("exclusive" for A level graduates!) after collecting my results and I'm so glad to have the leaders with me; they're so concerned with our results and what direction we're heading to next. Was feeling quite faithless but xuejun asked me to "just try!" to apply for something, so I guess there's no harm trying. (: I brought Vanilla out on that day and all the girls who saw it commented that it's cute! YES OF COURSE IT'S CUTE. Like owner like toy what. LOL.

There's worship session after the party; it's an opportunity to thank God for everything that He has planned and done. Though it is beyond our understanding, I'm sure that God will want the best for us. (:

Xuejun suggested going commonwealth for dinner which sounded crazy cos it's quite far from church....but aloy joined in and agreed that the tze char there is super nice, so off we went to Two Chefs for dinner!

 Sat with aloy, yc, ely, jess and yb at the same table. We ordered butter pork ribs, hong kong kailan (replaced by kangkong ordered by the other table in this photo), hotplate tofu and omelette! All are really nice! Love the kailan and pork ribs especially! <3

I was quite thankful that aloy brought us here 'cos eating good food makes me happy. ^^ I enjoy being well fed and well taken care of (potential boyfriends, please take note haha!). ^^


Saturday, 3 March
We had a postponed family outing which was to visit the Titanic exhibition at Art Science Museum!! :D

We went for the chinese guided tour at 3pm and we were the only ones following and listening to the tour guide...which was quite cool 'cos it made us seemed like we'd hired a tour guide just for ourselves! o.o

Anyway Mdm Chai, the tour guide, is super imba. She taught history for 35 years at Chung Cheng High School and was the dance assemble teacher in-charge before retiring. She started learning ballet when she's 6 and changed to learning traditional folk dance when she grew older! Now she's leading 2 dance troupes and serving as volunteer staff for National Museum of Singapore! She's 76 years old this year but she's still so energetic, enthusiastic and passionate about her work! She's an amazing role model and it was utter privilege to meet and get to know her! :D

I think it's definitely worth forking $20 out for the ticket because it's an absolute stunner and eye-opener - from the layout of the exhibition to the elaborated details in the display, plus the music and sound effects playing in the background added an extra touch to the experience we had "on board" Titanic. Shan't disclose more lest this becomes a spoiler entry, so I really encourage you to go visit this exhibition if you can afford it!! :D

Yup, and we went to Astons at The Cathay (again) for dinner and we queued for 1.25 hours to be seated. :O I swear I almost fainted while we were standing outside the restaurant. The guys in front of us were banging on the glass windows and making sarcastic remarks 'cos there were diners who simply refuseddd to leave after finishing eating; they were hogging onto the seats while chit-chatting to each other as though they own the restaurant. -_-

We entered the restaurant at about 9.15pm and I was famished by then. No wonder I could finish the entire plate of spaghetti. It wasn't as good as the one served at Singpost's outlet though, so I was pretty disappointed. ):


Sunday, 4 March
Basic Ministry Training started at 8.30am and I appeared to be unregistered when I was attempting to check my particulars. :O Maybe 'cos I'm no longer in DV1 (which I wasn't informed of and was being made a fool again) so there's a little mix-up in the administration process? Setting this issue aside, the most important thing is I've learned a great deal of things at BMT! They are not helpful to just church members; in fact they are applicable to everyone else too! Gained so much knowledge on how to discipline oneself and putting one's life in order; also learned the importance of several values (like punctuality and time-management) and good character! It's a wise decision to sign up for this 'cos I've gained so much as compared to how much I had given up on (in terms of sleep time and etc). (:

And I'm really glad to be going through this with my CG mates like aloy, justin, yewchoong and ian. It's nice to see people there who I know of. ^^

Thank you for the morning call, aloy (though I don't need it heh >:))! And also thank you for meeting up earlier with me cos if not, I would dilly-dally and probably end up being late. :/

Finally, I've been blessed to receive the Academic Excellence award given by the church for attaining grades that render me eligible for admission to local universities! The money's gonna be put to good use - it will be used to pay for the fees for VBS! Was quite worried that I couldn't save enough money in time for the payment before recalling that I won a cash prize (which means there wouldn't be any problem after all). #stm Thank you God!

Labels: dailies

not the ending but a new beginning

Collected my results today; really thank God for this because I had done much worse during prelims. :x So happy that I got the A I wanted for econs; went to thank Ms Kwok before I left college. (: I wanna be an economist! Yeah, for now I'll be eyeing this course. ^^v

Quite glad that I got a B for GP; I knew I lost the A the moment I submitted my paper 2. Mrs LN was a liiiiiittle disappointed but at least I maintained my standard. So...yay, kudos to me! (:

And WELL DONE ALOY FOR GETTING A FOR GP! That's insane! And thank you for giving me a crash course for GP. :D

Wanna thank my teachers for not giving up on me and supporting me all the way. Also thank you mad sis for teaching me math and telling me it's okay to fail my tests as long as I don't fail A levels lol. Thank you mugmate for being with me throughout this trying season - from studying together to listening to my life's troubles, to offering advice and asking me to keep having faith. (: Thank you everyone! (:

Labels: special occasion, update

because I'm stressed

So I decided to go for a haircut at Hair Journal!
Taken and posted on fb by my sis. Look at how terribly long my bangs were. ):

Anyway I really enjoyed Jarry's service - from blowdrying my hair till it's super straight (and not just for the sake of drying my hair) to cutting all the standing white hair for me. :'> There's so much effort put in, which is why it took nearly 1.5 hours to get my hair washed, dried and cut. :O

Oooh I like my hair now! It's shorter (hence cooler), neater and it makes me look refreshed. ^^ I'm grateful for yesterday's hair appointment 'cos my mom could actually sit down beside me and take a good look at me (I know this 'cos she told me I look tired). I'm out most of the time (working + going to church + having dinner with friends) so it's nice having her presence after so long. (:

WOOO and I just had my eighth tuition lesson on wednesday, which means that was PAY DAY! :D Had to give commission to my agent but the remaining sum was reasonable, so YAY. It sure feels good when my wallet grows fatter. :D

Quite excited for later 'cos I'm eager to know how badly I've done LOL. Everyone's asking what my ambition is/where I'm moving on to/what course I wanna study in uni, but I have no freaking idea. :/ All depends on that slip of paper to determine my future. AND COLLEGE Y U NO CALL ME YET. Sigh. ):

Labels: update

don't disturb the busy bees

Busy time this week! Ian asked me if I'm free on thursday for some evangelism time and I told him I'm not...and I took 2 minutes to recall the reason. :/ He asked me for monday (aka today) and I took 30 seconds to remember that I'll be giving tuition. :/ Memory's definitely failing and it doesn't help at all. ):

Anyway, I'm quite excited for tomorrow 'cos there will be BVL (the division I'm working in) gathering, which means good food for lunch is guaranteed. :D I think there will be games too, but who cares? My eyes will solely be on the reception. :D I asked Dym John if I can take a half-day leave tomorrow and he reminded me of this (thank goodness! #stm), so I asked if I can eat before I go. AND MY DEPUTY MANGER REPLIED "of course! Why not?". That's so touching! :'>

The time-off is for rest and restoration. (: Yup, will be finishing the remaining chapters for brp (hopefully) by tomorrow. Will also be studying for BTT while having Cold Stone (hopefully). ^^ All these, plus doing some catching up at the same time! Can't wait! :D

Giving tuition on wednesday night; made appointment at Hair Journal on thursday. Yup, I'm cutting my hair just for the collection of A level results.....kidding! :D Friday's the release of A level results....I'm kind of worried, but the thing is I've already known what direction to go if I flunk, but not if I aced. :O So....oh well. We shall see..

Labels: update

confusion - not cool

I would laugh if I see a pokemon which's being attacked by "confusion", but I'll definitely not be in the mood to laugh when I've being made confused in reality.

Supposed to be marking my student's homework but heck, I have too much in my mind right now. Need to blog it out like, nowwww.

Firstly, what you texted me and what you tweeted don't exactly tally. :O But I shan't judge you before I get to the bottom of this; don't wanna create any more misunderstandings in my life.

Next, why did you send me that fb message? Honestly I have no idea how to react, so I replied some patronising answer. What I can say is I value my friendship with him more than that with yours, so eventually when you're done talking, I'll tell him everything without leaving out a single detail. This is serious and I need to be serious and careful/tactful in handling this.

Kay I'm done ranting. The above people are 2 different persons, by the way. Sucks that shit has to accumulate at a time like this. But yayyyy my wish came true (like seriously, I thought I'll never see this day) - I'll be studying for BTT (as if I signed up for it lol...just studying for the sake of the knowledge) and at the same time, do some serious repair and restoration work to my most valued friendship. <3 YESSSS I can't wait. :D

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