Yeeeeeeah, I know that but it's so hard. Especially since "things" have already "come" and there's no way I can run. Feeling really shagged nowadays even though workload in the office stayed the same. I guess I was mentally and emotionally occupied so I got myself really worn out. Tried listening to songs and I almost cried when those emo ones like “我爱他” by 叮噹 and "How to break a heart" by Westlife were playing. Felt equally awful when those slightly more cheerful ones were playing, like "Where we are" by Westlife ('cos of the line "what can tear us apart?"). Didn't even dare to play "The Saltwater Room" by Fireflies 'cos I know I would confirm cry wtf. Thank goodness I have a few Praise and Worship songs in my phone so I listened to them on repeat. (Y) JX was doing 比手画脚 in the background and mouthing words, faking that he's trying to talk to me but I couldn't hear 'cos of my headphones. LOL nice try dude, but it made me laugh, so...thanks a lot. :)

Oh, my toes are in slightly better shape and I'm not limping around as badly now. ^^v They still kind of hurt though and I can't help feeling crippled arrrgh! Hate the discomfort but I have to force myself to bear with it.

Actually, sometimes I'm thankful that it could hurt so much that it freed my mind of the negative emo thoughts, as all I could feel was the pain from my toes and nothing else. Still, it can't entirely erase the pain of having a great loss in my life.

Shit. I miss you so much.